Hey guys, Long time no see 👀 just kidding but yah it’s true. Hope everyone is fine and doing well ☺️. After many months I feel like writing something tbh I feel like sharing.

It’s really been a tough phase in my life. I started meeting new people, some people taught me beautiful lessons and few people became close to me like a family. And I miss a few people in my life that I really wished to be with but you know as we grow people change, behaviour change and mostly priorities change.

But I don’t understand these phase of my life nowadays. I really don’t know What I want,what I don’t want, I don’t even know what I like and what I don’t like. Sometimes I talk too much to people and the next minute I feel more disconnected with the people.

My brain has changed its thinking from, Life is full of surprises and miracles to Life is full of problems and pains. I don’t even remember anything about my life it’s like i am disconnected to myself and living like someone.

My mom asked me a beautiful question yesterday that what I want in my life and u know she also said to me that I understand ur brother and sister what they want to be in their life and what they want to do and what they want  but I’m not sure about what u actually want in ur life. After listening to my mom’s talk I was like what should I answer now and what I really want in my life and what I want to be. Now I feel like I’m just living my life  just like that and going with the flow. And u know why  she asked me that question because I told, my family that I never want to get married and I wanted to live my life with mom. She started thinking more about me and about my life bapreee. Let’s see what happens 🤞

I know many people see these and say many things now, first of all idk who u r and even if i know you and if you don’t know y i took these decision than you are definitely known and unknown person to me means you may know me a person maybe as a frnd relative family or whatever but u don’t know what i am actually.

I am really disconnected to people  from last 2-3 years, now I am just leaving my life just for my family that is mom ,brother and sister I really have a small circle in  my life. And I don’t even have space for anyone in it. Even if I give, they just leave me like i am a stranger to them at the end. I am tired of everything.

You know ,It’s been many days that I have seen sunrise in my life. My day starts with my work at 7 AM and it feels like I am working like a idk what to describe also about it🙂 but sometimes it feels like running away from this world to find some peace, happiness and especially wanted to know about myself❣️

And u know, I started getting much respect for the people who are working hard for their family. It could be any work that they are doing either small or big I started respecting them I don’t say that i didn’t respect them before but now I have more respect to them but at the same time I started hating people who actually act like working it could be anyone either elder or younger I am not liking these people.

Right now, I feel like sitting on the terrace with one person(anyone family ,cousins ,friends ,relative ) beside me who listens to all my stupid talks without judging me. I really don’t want any suggestions from them but just want them to listen to me what I want to say. Sometimes people are lucky, if they have that one person who listens to you without judging. I do have many people in my life but u know at some point of time they may be busy in their own life and i should respect that for sure. But I am sure after seeing these Blog they are gonna blast like firecrackers on me 😂 but seriously nowadays mostly I feel these.

Feels like sharing many but don’t know where to start and end also if I start writing about it, u will get bored of my life😂

So finally idk what u guys will understand by reading these and idk what i share also. I am bad at communicating my feelings mostly but I do share something today about myself that no one knows about me.

Just leave everything and do what makes you happy guys. It’s really easy to say these quotes but when it comes to reality,  we every time do what makes us sad and even if it’s hurting we still hold to things with hope until it burns completely 🔥. In my case, even if it is burnt I will apply ointment and still go back and hold it tighter 😂 no shame nothing 😶

Take care guys and keep smiling ☺️