Heyy hii……I hope everyone is fine🙂……The only reason behind these blog is”to say all my feelings to my mirror”……..
https://wp.me/pbT200-3b…..I think everyone knows for whom I am writing these……
I don’t know when, how ,where the strongest bond called friendship was built in between us??? But u r the best thing that happened in my life……. I never thought I would write such a blog for u😟 I still don’t know how to start but I will end these barrier between us…..
Yes, there are many bruises in my heart but it’s just happened because of my actions (like karma) . You may or may not be the reason behind that but never feel regret about it because u r the person who made(teach) me to step against these and made me stronger. I am thankful for that😘
I know,The day I stopped talking and walking with u is the day everyone raised their voice on u. I know it made u sad but I didn’t have ans to their que because u never shared those things with me, it made me clam. I just thought may be u r not comfortable of sharing it. But I never walked away from u I just stood clam and waited because it’s between u and family😢…… Apart from that, Before that many times when same situation happened between u and family I stood by ur side and talked against my family……. I never left u in any moment but these time I just remain silent……At the same time semester exams and holidays silence had turned into distance🙁
I tried my best to break the silence between us, but I understand it’s already to late by ur actions and words. I still remember the word u said “updated version N……. 2.0”. And that made me anger and feel sad……I think after 2 years that’s the first semester I wrote without u(I mean without talking to u)
Maybe, my silence made the situation worst between us because” we share a common habit of remaining clam, overthinking,over caring” .These are main reason and flaws in between us which lead us upto now right…….
Yeah, “when I said someone is making me sad u almost fought with him”correct it not almost u fought with him for me. That moment I feel like protected. And u know very well that I am very introvert person I don’t share anything with anyone but I share everything with u idiot and but now I feel like I don’t have anyone to share………. From past 1 year I said these to u 2 times every time u used to say sry and feel regret about it. I didn’t want you to feel regret or say sry idiot I just want you back to normal in my life who always supports and understand my silence too……. But I started sharing atleast 15% with my family it’s just because of u and started writing blogs to share my feelings.
Yeah, I supported her and given ur space from me I never asked anything about it and interfere between u. But I totally get mad when I seen them cry because of u….. I even tried to contact u asked u about it but u treated me like a stranger 😶maybe that moment break my heart and it totally went out of my control……. U started calling me “maa” Before and after of every conversation and u idiot I really hate when u call like that. I think in April or may we had a conversation about these till midnight but still I didn’t get my ans till now and I am not going to ask about it again anymore……
The most beautiful quality that u have is “understanding nature”, never miss that with misunderstandings. U r thinking that u have changed a lot but I still believe u r same from inside, I accepted ur change because u r still my mental, naughty girl❤ inside…… I really missed u a lot that may be can’t expressed by words.
Yes, I never decided a plan without u and now turned out,we both are hiding each other to speak Endless to formal talks, unplanned visit to no visit, constantly msgs to no msgs, informal lang to formal lang, hugs to wish, no secret to secret keeper, especially best friends to strangers its totally weird and I tried to end it but it didn’t worked….yes it harmed as mentally……. I am very sorry about ur b’day I know it’s ur b’day but I am feared of ur stranger behavior that’s the only reason I didn’t wish u first and didn’t attend clg…… I feel like u made ur new frnd circle and enjoying so I just don’t want to be like stranger there again😣……….
I still didn’t understand ur word ” Break the chain” What does that mean……
But remember this,U always have a special place in my heart with or without communication it cannot be replaced by anyone
I am still trying my best to heal all the patches💝…….. At last I just want to end this as soon as possible…… Waiting for ur response……. I know my mistakes can’t be changed but u know what made me to do that…..health jagrata, time ki tinu pandhi(bakadana)
chinnu 